He was studying very late last night and felt lazy to get up from his bed. But then just a thought of seeing her beautiful smile forced him out of the bed. He hated early morning lecture and if it was not for her he would have happily bunked and slept through the morning.

He thought, she was the cutest girl in entire class. She was very humble, caring and her ever helping nature attracted him. They were good friends, but their friendship was restricted to college hours. He always imagined and practiced several times to ask her out for coffee or dinner, but somehow never dared. He valued their friendship more than anything else and was too scared loose it.

It was the last day of college and juniors had organized sendoff party. This was a good opportunity to express his feelings for her. He planned to ask her for a dance and then propose her. Dance floor was already crowded. His eyes were searching for her in the dim light of dance hall. Finally he found her sitting next to her friend, happily munching chips and sipping coca-cola. She was dressed casually and was wearing blue jeans and white t-shirt. In this low light she resembled like a shinning star and he thought she looked out of the world. Their eyes met each other, and she greeted him with a smile. She could sense something in his eyes. At that very moment he wished to have that smile for rest of his life.

He said, “Would like to dance?”, she said “Yes”. It seems that she was expecting it and now they were on the dance floor. Both of them never danced together, hence it brought some unwanted attention. But both of them were in their own world and acted ignorant. DJ played “Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman”, it was her favorite song and he sensed it’s a right time to convey his feeling. He said, “I think I like you a lot”. Dam!!! what happened, he could not believe what he just said. After practicing million times to say “I love you” in million different ways he managed only this. He was disappointed with himself. There was a silence for few seconds, which made him worried. Just before he could say anything, she responded “I also like you as a friend”. He said “Good”. Then there was a long silence and the song ended. After that incident neither of them discussed it. College ended and both went separate ways.

5 years later…

As usual courtesy great Mumbai traffic, he was late for the movie and his friends were waiting at the entrance. He ran towards the lift and jumped in like a bollywood hero before it closed. He was shocked to see she standing next to him. There was a awkward moment where in he could not understand what to say, shake hands, hug her. She sensed it and held her hand out. He was still recovering and said “hey, nice to see you”. While lift head towards 5th floor, they did normal catching up about work, friends, etc. She had moved recently to Mumbai. They exchanged their numbers and promised to call each other.

That night in the bed he thought about his so called proposal and realized how stupid he was back then. He loved her so much and wondered if he had guts to say “I love you and want to spend his life with her”. He just wished only if she knew how much he loved her.

She was thinking about same incident. She also loved him a lot and but didn’t have enough courage to express her feelings. She thought life would have been so different if and only if she had conveyed what he meant for her. She wished only if he knew how much she loved him.

and her phone started ringing.. she wondered who was calling at this hour, it was him.

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